“Fashion Police” judge and reality TV star Kelly Osbourne has struggled with her weight in the past, but has been maintaining her weight after her 50-pound weight loss.  However, although it’s been two years, Kelly still doesn’t see herself as skinny.

“I call myself an FFP: former fat person,” Osbourne told the Sun. “And when you’re an FFP, you will always see in yourself what people used to bully you for.

“I grew up on the road with my father [rocker Ozzy Osbourne] but I came from a very, very small village where everyone called me ‘Kelly Smelly with the Big Belly Whose Dad’s on Telly,’ ” Kelly recalls. “It hurt me so badly to be judged like that. Even now, I don’t consider myself skinny.”

Kelly slimmed down in 2010 by doing exercises like: Pilates, plyometrics, and cardio workouts on the treadmill and the elliptical trainer.  She also changed her diet, giving up her beloved junk food and swapping it for high-protein and low-fat foods.

However, her fitness regimen these days are a little more lax now that she’s maintaining the weight.

“I was called fat and ugly in the press almost my entire life,” Osbourne told Shape in December 2010. “I understand that being judged by others comes with the territory, but it broke my heart and ruined my self-esteem. It sets you up to hate yourself in a huge way.”

Kelly’s weight struggle and drug addiction was attributed to her “hating herself”.

“I was so angry about the things people said about me,” she said. “I truly believe it’s the main reason I turned to Vicodin and ended up in rehab three times. I just hated myself. I replaced the drugs with food and just got fatter and fatter.”

Kelly has a better relationship with herself these days, however she’s not striving to be the prettiest girl in the room.

“Women are so unforgiving of themselves,” she says. “We don’t recognize our own beauty, because we’re too busy comparing ourselves to other people. We are not all Gisele Bundchen or Beyonce, but I can tell you even the most beautiful girls in the world have felt insecure.

“Just seeing the pressure my friends Kim Kardashian and Kate Moss are under makes me never want to be the prettiest in the room. There is no such thing as perfection.”

 

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