Former Pussycat Dolls singer Nicole Scherzinger opens up about her struggle with bulimia.
The eating disorder was attributed to hating herself “so much” she would force herself to vomit “every day. Although Nicole was in a band, she felt alone.
“I just hated myself. I really was so disgusted with myself and so embarrassed. I felt so alone. I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life.
“I did it every day for, like, years. Every time I had a second to be alone, I was doing something to myself. You get, like, blisters on your hands or scars on your hands, and I’d try to hide those. I think the girls could tell.”
Struggling with her fame, Nicole says in an upcoming episode of ‘VH1 Behind the Music’:
“‘It’s embarrassing. I never spoke about it. Like I said, I never want to play a victim, and I never wanted my family to hear about things from me because I think it would break their heart, you know.
“I guess it was like my addiction, right? I never did drugs, but kinda doing things to myself was my addiction. It’s like when I got off stage, I was on this high, and I’d come back to my room and I’d be alone, so I would just do things. My bulimia was my addiction; hurting myself was my addiction”
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